Chillin' one more time

 

        Hello Fam,

   I hope you all are doing great! I am quite fine too. So firstly apologies again my dears for like such a late upload EVEN though I said that it wont happen again. I mentioned I was a bit busy nowadays yeah? So it was that. Now some of you understood busy but some of you didn't. I got emails regarding being late and not just some like ALOT. Some of these emails were, understandable. I was late, my fault, I should be careful but some of them gave me a full on guilt trip. Like one email I got didn't have the name of the person who sent it, no Dear Winder, just 5 words; 'Hasn't it been 5 days?' and believe me when I say that I haven't felt more guilty in my beautiful breathing years. Point is that iv'e got some critical months going on and I am focusing on what I want nowadays, how I feel, or in simpler words if i'm better or not.

   Firstly, as some of you know about the mystery commenter. I'm pretty sure that father_arlecchino_4_ and Faye are pretty aware but for the rest of you who don't know can go visit the comment section of my previous blog, 'Merry Christmas and a ha ha ha'. Okay so to clear the air of those confused no, no the guy/girl did not email me so OBVIOUSLY I diagnose that they don't know anything aside from 'what I think they know that they know is what I think and write in my blogs and they think they know its all'. Why do I feel like a grammatical wizard after writing down all that, which reminds me iv'e got news to share.

   Since you know I do poetry. And you also know that im a mindless teenage girl; meaning iv'e too got crushes and stuff. Put that together what do you get? I wrote poetry for my supposed crush. And before you guys think, i'll let you know nope, no way im sharing the name. Though I could share the poetry for those interested. If not then its totally up to you, you can scroll down too.

His ego’s taller than his frame,
A mountain made of careless pride,
A fool, a spark, a stubborn flame—
Yet here I am, with nowhere to hide.
He’s not the man I thought I’d want,
No perfect soul, no gentle heart,
Just someone flawed and proud and blunt,
Still, he pulls me in, even when we’re apart.
His eyes—stupid, like they see right through,
That smile—ridiculous, as if it’s all a game.
But when he’s near, it feels like truth,
Like something real, though nothing’s the same.
I’d give the world and more away,
If only it could make him stay.
I’d lift the sky, I’d bear the storm,
I’d be the place where he’s reborn.
For all his flaws, I can’t let go,
Of this magnetism, this silent glow.
He’s not perfect—but maybe,
Just maybe, that’s why I love him so.

   So yeah theres that, no judging. I also just realized iv'e got devastating news to share with you guys but that can wait till the end of the blog yeah? So lets talk about something else for now. I know some of you would be really mad at me for this but like I skipped that book I was writing and started another one. Just as most of you predicted, its like a loop. BUT I am committed to this one, I really like the story myself. A sneak peak is that the protagonist was going to give her fans a sneak peak on her story and TRICKED YA! Its amazing and its confidential, but trust me, worth the wait.

   So just now there was a bell at my door and I went to check and my long lost neighbour came back. She was gone for so long, though shes going away again tomorrow. She brought me and my brothers Lays and I will be forever grateful lol but really. Really shes the best. Shes the nicest person iv'e ever met at least' and i'm really sad over the fact that shes leaving again.

   Moreover I improved my grades more. I had my assessments and I got my percentage as 92% and I know its not much but i'm proud of myself. YOU SHOULD BE TOO! 

   So as most of you know iv'e got a few screws loose in my head, well obviously. But like I went into therapy, bet that wasn't quite obvious. Honestly it was the funniest experience since the counselor wanted to know what was wrong but I didn't know myself. So it was just an on and off discussion of "WHATS WRONG?!?!", "I DONT KNOWWW!!!!" Even though therapy wasn't helpful it certainly gave me a laugh when I think bout it.

   Also to add I wanted to write about Chotu partly since we had some talks. Iv'e come to know him, enough to say first impressions aren't mostly the last impressions. Hes a really nice guy, caring and "ahem ahem" Very annoying "ahem ahem" I think iv'e got a bit of a sore throat. Iv'e come to know a dream of his, which is to be the best striker in the world. Typical but I support him and I encourage you all to support him too, and prayers will also be appreciated. i feel like a monk tbh but you get my point.

   My bird Charlie also learned to talk and he is the cutest thing ever and... wait... what am I even saying. I HATE HIM. I legit sat with him and was about to pet him but GUESS what? He bit me and called me a "gandu bachu" (bad girl). Like the nerve, the audacity that the thing has. But I wouldn't fight with him, If I had power like that, id use it 24/7 too. Its like he has authority over me, not the other way around.

   I legit have Fairytale by Alexander Rybak playing in the background. But that's beside the point. I feel like I should come to the conclusion of the blog WHICH is the tragic news. So brace yourselves for this but this is the last blog youre ever reading for me. And no, no, no, i'm not dying or anything like that, I just feel like I should quit, focus on my life and stuff. I'm in a critical grade at school, my life's critical, like a novel but with a bit too many plot twists that strictly neccessary. 

   I know this might not be the best Goodbye you've seen but trust me when I say I just am not good at this stuff. Goodbyes are just not my thing. Emotions and Goodbyes. So I guess ill just say bye, and know that even though Winter will not be here, ill still, love you as my Fam. Today, tomorrow, forever. 

(Winter has left the chat... forever)